you realize that no, that is not how your cosmic consort would be.
knowing what you do not want in a relationship is probably easier than ever know what you do want.
because the truth is, we have NO idea what we want except in relation to what we don't want. just because we don't want a "man who is out of touch", we also want a man who we can be independent and detached from without ever feeling that way. The inextricable need to have that person just "there" when you desire to connect (in whatever form that may take in any given moment in time), is the one that drags us down that co-dependent hole of self-destructive habits that breed zombies at an alarming rate.
connection is great. Connection will drown you in your own selfish distraction of self-sacrifice to the other just so they will feel loved. Sick really, if you think about it. Who wants to feel loved? I want to know I'm loved by having the timing of meaningful connection serendipitous with the desire rather than need, that when there's a purity that is based in positive vibrations.
Ok, so that's not a story, but its what I'm thinking may work given what I know I do not want. =)
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