Wednesday, August 6, 2014

stranger danger and other false flags

so, like, this is what he said to me ....

"i didn't know it was you i've been looking for ....." and some other really creepy things like that.  digital relationships gone real life meetings, you know what i mean.

i knew i had a stalker, i just didn't know when he would appear and how he would look, but i knew he would be brilliant, and indeed he glowed so brightly until he was zapped with a reflection of his brilliance and that scared him back to his darker corners of his reality.  i didn't stay long in that first meeting.  and i knew, also, that this wasn't "the one."  i wasn't disappointed, frustrated a little maybe, but knew that this meeting was a step to the next in whatever was going to be next.

a king dwarf is the best way to describe his vibe, albeit a dwarf like a santa's elf kind of thing because he was really so soft and actually so very gentle, much like how i imagine snow white's family.  his eyes so dark, you knew the soul of the earth was all that was left to see in them, amazing really.  i wondered what my blue eyes told him when he said that corny but very sincere statement to me.  i just nodded and held a giggle.

i already knew what reality i was playing with so, i indulged his slow reactions to things and puzzling looks when things just didn't go exactly how they were designed to go, given the amount of control he had been granted over the world as it was in that moment.  its ok to not know the future, that is what equalizes the playing field on this planet, except when you do know the future and you still make choices out of ignorance when someone of experience can make them with you.  and, its at that moment when you get to demonstrate how to measure the egomaniac you can be, as we all can be.  =)

truly, the one looking for love turned chaos on its ear when it was offered so freely, just like the design called for in all the fairy tale endings that every person wants for their lives.  when it appears, it is a fluttering moment that is best captured in real time, real space and this moment.  after that, it can just simply fly away and never been seen again.

in this random google search results for the interaction between the tarot representative of me and you, as randomly drawn to represent the now and the symbolic relationship of me and you, I wonder what your role as the high priestess will be if I share my curiosity ... I just wonder, why the Queen just never asks the King if he would be ok to just simply watch as she plays with her Lover?  Maybe he would join in?  I don't know, the conflict seems rather silly if one keeps an open mind!




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