Playing Jinx In Love

When was it, I wonder, when we were all programmed to be so self-effacing?  And, really, we are not, but we pretend to be in order to hide what we really want.  I suppose if we just all went after what we wanted instead of feigning a self-worthlessness that manipulates only the weakest of minds for cheap emotional payoffs, we would all be pigs.  And, not those kinds of pigs that are of the cute, e.b. white variety.

I got an eNote from a relatively new friend the other day, who indicated, "I don't want to jinx it [a new relationship]."  That made me disappointed, as I thought he was a man.

What kind of real relationship would anyone get involved

where that is a thought a grown man would have?

 What kind of relationship could ever result from a beginning such as this?  To be honest, I never even had that kind of relationship in high school.

There is a difference between being a nice person who is an adult, knows what they want, knows what they don't want, knows the qualities of a relationship for empowerment.  Then there's the nice person who is always looking for someone to treat them badly so they have an excuse for not succeeding in the life they desire to live.  Working to impress someone is a distraction for people who are unable to receive love.  And, if you look around on planet earth right now, there are many people currently afflicted with that psychosis. 


What I am finding, as I journey out on this path once again stepping into the realm of inter-personal relationships with an eye to relationship, I realize the lessons I learned from my first marriage are profound and I am so grateful for that experience.  But, I love being a pig and know that in relationships, if you are insecure ever, you will be insecure always.

Insecurity defeats the purpose of being in relationship.