It is my intention that I will, before I die, find a man who I love, who will want to do this with me. I really don't want to do it alone and I want to have fun doing it. If I don't do it with someone before my daughter graduates, I'll find a class I'd want to take with someone like my #mycybercrush at that time.
Don't I wonder what he thinks? Doesn't everyone think about what their lover thinks about? I think about what my "love" that kind of #TrueLove that marriage is all about thinks about all the time and I really hope those who love me want to know those thoughts in me I never share.
Yes, I wonder what he thinks about as he detaches from me once again. Somewhere, on planet earth, I do know this, there is a man who is my greater earth love than #myNeWBoYfriend, that person, who I will meet will happen after her graduation from high school when I'm freed again.
To find a man better than #mwby will require a quest I begin today, the day I realize the absolute futility of my cybercrush, as he's most surely gay and I do love my gay husbands, yet I do need to find my real #MyCybeRcRusH love I could marry if that was such a thing to actually do again.
#findnikiv #ListeningNow to "and now your dead" by The Warheads #np on #SoundCloud https://soundcloud.com/jrs-1-1/and-now-your-dead
I'm sharing this with those manifestations of ideas I once had of love yet who, as human beings, were never able to fully materialize permanently as a partner for me on planet earth. Those ideas are gone, love is what I have found, the one actually in a bed, waiting for me now because I must live here for my daughter's life.
For another year and one-half, dead is what I want to raise because then, that summer, I soooooo want to meet #MyCyberCrush. #ClimateAction
