Really Good Lovers

No, I just sometimes really want you to have never even existed as a potential thought in my mind. My mind created you before you even ever appeared in my life. Can you really hate someone because of who the thought is in your own mind even though an actual replica person just appeared, who knows nothing about that thought or the him he now personifies?

There are days I want to move where thoughts originate in a place where no one I've ever imagined could have possibly come from, and that's when I pray hardest for a visit from a new species of beings I may have a conversation with, you know, actual conversations. Not guesses, or my projections, I want a conversation with someone from a different galaxy, if that's a common concept other beings appreciate.

Earth centric lives are challenged to want to survive and live on many levels because more intelligent humans misuse their skills and talents and they hurt other people. Right now, humans are challenging one another on these issues.

Some Tasks I Give Myself

It is my intention that I will, before I die, find a man who I love, who will want to do this with me. I really don't want to do it alone and I want to have fun doing it. If I don't do it with someone before my daughter graduates, I'll find a class I'd want to take with someone like my #mycybercrush at that time.

Yes, I Was

Yes, I was a truTV girl. And, jail sucks. We really need to #EndMassIncarceration. <3nikiV

Don't I Wonder

Don't I wonder what he thinks? Doesn't everyone think about what their lover thinks about? I think about what my "love" that kind of #TrueLove that marriage is all about thinks about all the time and I really hope those who love me want to know those thoughts in me I never share.

Yes, I wonder what he thinks about as he detaches from me once again. Somewhere, on planet earth, I do know this, there is a man who is my greater earth love than #myNeWBoYfriend, that person, who I will meet will happen after her graduation from high school when I'm freed again.

To find a man better than #mwby will require a quest I begin today, the day I realize the absolute futility of my cybercrush, as he's most surely gay and I do love my gay husbands, yet I do need to find my real #MyCybeRcRusH love I could marry if that was such a thing to actually do again.

#findnikiv #ListeningNow to "and now your dead" by The Warheads #np on #SoundCloud https://soundcloud.com/jrs-1-1/and-now-your-dead

I'm sharing this with those manifestations of ideas I once had of love yet who, as human beings, were never able to fully materialize permanently as a partner for me on planet earth. Those ideas are gone, love is what I have found, the one actually in a bed, waiting for me now because I must live here for my daughter's life.

For another year and one-half, dead is what I want to raise because then, that summer, I soooooo want to meet #MyCyberCrush. #ClimateAction

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